It's Time to Have a Love Affair

I think it's time to have an affair......

I am slightly bored, neglected, and picking up the pieces of my broken heart. 

It's time for a hot, heavy love affair.

There is a certain someone I am filled with desire for....there's a longing that will not go away. I can't deny it a minute more......

I am going to have a love affair........with myself!

I am going to treat myself to dinner at the finest restaurants, watch movies, read books, go to concerts, museums, mingle with others at the independent film club I joined a year ago but never took part in, walk through forests, gardens, sit on the beach and watch the sunrise and the sunset. I will light candles, sip tea, and soak in a nice hot bath. I want to dance again! I am going to turn up the volume on my stereo and dance around the house. I just might go out dancing, too. By myself. And wear a pair of sexy, strappy heels.

Maybe I will take a belly dancing class. I have always wanted to do that......I can get some of my girlfriends together and we can go....how much fun would that be?

I want to cut and color my hair. I am thinking RED. I would look hot as a red-head! Not CARROT red-- a nice rich auburn. Something new, something different. And, while I am at it- a manicure, a pedicure and a massage, too. 

I will wear lingerie. For me. Stuff I like: soft, sexy, silky, feminine, lacy, clingy......

And....I will pick wild flowers, roses or a bunch of dandelions to display in my finest crystal vases.

I am going to cook amazing meals for one and enjoy my dinner by candlelight at the table- not in front of television.  In fact, I might not turn on the TV at all... for days. I hate television. It's an escape, a waste of time and big romance killer.

I want to think, I want to feel, I want to hear the voice inside my head. I want to listen to my heart, my hopes, my dreams, my goals.

I want to wake up everyday and ask: "What does Cynthia want to do today?"

And then I am going to do it!

Oh, what a wonderful love affair this is going to be........

This is not the time to feel sorry for myself. I am not going to punish myself or attempt to fill the emptiness with ice cream, cookies, potato chips or chocolate. I refuse to wallow in self-pity or cry over another failed relationship.

I have been neglecting myself for such a long time. I have set aside the things I want to do, the things I want to see, the places I want to go- just to make someone else happy. Why did I do that?

Why do I always do that?

I need to figure out why so I don't make the same mistake next time........

So......I am going to be a little selfish and pour all my passion and love in to the one person who needs it most right now: ME!

And when I am overflowing with love... I will be ready to share it once again....

And this is my Daily Cyn.....