Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Let's Get Personal

I have been catching a bit of 'heat' lately because I am way too personal in my blogs. I share too much stuff about my life, my struggles, my arguments and disagreements with others. "DAILY CYN" is a blog about health, life, and whatever comes to mind. MY mind.  There are always ideas bouncing around in this head of mine.  I am inspired by things I see, hear, touch, taste, and smell. I am  inspired by what I feel and think. I am also greatly inspired by others. I can't help that.

I am a Nutritional Consultant.  I teach people how to eat well--for health, disease prevention and weight loss. It's deeper than that, however. I more interested in feeding the soul for when the soul is content, we lose that desire to indulge in unhealthy, harmful practices and behaviors.  We begin to carefully consider everything we allow to enter our lives. What we experience with our five senses becomes a part of us, whether we like it or not. We are what we eat!

I could throw facts, figures, and tons of information at you. I could outline the ways you can lower your cholestrol. Eat this....not that. But what good is low cholestrol if you are not living the life you have always wanted to live? I could present myself as an authority on weight loss.  I know a few things about diet. Want to fit into a size zero? I can help you with that. But if you don't like yourself, the perfect dress size is meaningless.

Yes, I could present myself as an authority and the perfect example of good physical, mental and spiritual health. I would probably have alot more clients if I did that. But I am interested in quality, not quantity. The fact is, I am not perfect--in fact I am far from it.  I am just like you. 

Sometimes I wake up in the morning and I don't like myself.  I hate my thighs. I fight with my boyfriend and ocassionally wonder if he is really the right guy for me.  I selfishly worry what is going to happen to me if my dad does not win his fight with cancer.  I battle with weight and sometimes I don't want to come home from work and cook dinner for one. I would rather kick back with a bag of Doritos and a glass of wine. Do I do that? NO, not really..but I have.  I worry how I am going to pay my rent at the end of the month. I despise the fact that no matter how hard I work out, one butt cheek sags a little lower than the other.  Too much personal information? If you are forty-nine years old and still have a perfect ass, please, please share your exercise tips with me! I am a vegan but last night, at my niece's birthday party I had ice cream--made with milk--from a cow! GASP! I feel awful about that and I am paying for it today. My body cannot digest it. Will I ever indulge in ice cream again? I would like to say no, but honestly, I really don't know.

My life is an open book and I have no problem sharing my personal issues, struggles, failures, and disappointments.  I get a little nervous around perfect people. Don't you?

For those who take issue with the fact that I am way too personal, I refuse to apologize. I am not about to change who I am.  I am not ashamed to admit I am not perfect. The best way I know how to teach, is to teach by example. If I don't have the same or similar struggles as everyone else, how can I possibly expect to help any one?

Every once in awhile, I get an email from someone that makes it all worthwhile. Something I wrote touched them on a deeper level.  They were thinking, feeling, or experiencing the same exact thing. This is why I do this. I don't care about reaching the masses.  I want to touch people, heal people and love people.... one beautiful soul at a time. 

And this is my Daily Cyn............

1 comment:

  1. One of the things that I admire most about you is your willingness to reveal the "real Cyn" You seem to have no fear in this regard and it impresses me greatly because it's so rare. I can't do it and I don't know anyone else who even comes close to you in this respect. It adds to your charm and charisma in my opinion and I hope you don't change.